and all the others who contributed to this book.
Sincerely, Peggy
Dear Virginia:
I may seem somewhat tardy in returning my appli- cation for F.P.E., but I feel very strongly day after day, as I read and reread the TVias and Mirrors, that I have what you said about getting information into the prospective member is more important than getting mon- ey out of them.
It is with greatest sincerity that I say, "To me TV- ia in general and your Editorial Emanations in particu- lar, have answered the many questions concerning my- self, that, if gone unanswered, would surely have driv- en me to seek release in other areas, which I detest.
Likewise, I have lost, or better, replaced, an all compulsive urgency, ringing like a fire alarm, that made my dressing a clandestine type of thing. A thing, not of beauty, but needed and always ridden with guilt.
Now, with your help, I find I can savour the anti- cipation, much as one looks forward to a good play or meeting an old friend; no more like an animal stalking its prey on which to glut itself. Consequently the end result finds me a gentle and respectable Phyllis, unlike the secretive, often garish girl of the dark of yore.Al- so, though the situation hasn't presented itself (nor shall I seek the opportunity for it) I believe that should I ever find my dressing questioned (officially that is) I am finding enough self confidence along with less guilt that would enable me to present our side of the story without a lot of emotional upheaval. And as time goes on, with your educational editorials and other help I feel that I can help my wife to become content- ed with my desires in this.
After all, I spent many years trying to understand this myself and I feel that an overnight acceptance and understanding on her part is just too much to expect.
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